Piano's Wonderland

Are you my father?
Well, the answer is yes.
Are you a father?
I'm not sure.
I just know that you and mom have me, and you got married.
The person who have brought up me is not you!!!
You didn't and cannot do anything during these years, but gave a birth to me.
I hope that you didn't have me if I would know the situation will go like this.
As a result, I don't live painfully.
Or I never exist!
Only when I get rid of you can I live happily.
I know it is a terrible thought, but I can't help thinking about this.
What can I do?
Everything I do is wrong...Everything I do is not good...
My aunt always worries about me.
I really don't want that happened.
I love Wong, but I don't like my family, Pongs.
I like my mother's family which I have lived with them for more than twenty years.
Why I write this down is to show the thoughts in my mind that I don't dare to say it.
I hope I can become a psychotic disorder so that I don't need to face the things.......